the Returning of Me, my ownself

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Hmm… time has passed by… been silent for ages.. since my last final exam.. this time, with full fledge mood i return to continue my quest in seeking and sharing my knowledge. Alhamdulillah, the glory and the most gracious God of all… has given us much more time to do more amal..

hehe.. now, im planning to hav a change in the way i write. Maybe will be even using malay too insyaALLAH.

hmm.. Today.. nak cakap pasal the mentality of org melayu.

So, dulu… my mother has been nagging me bout why the malays suka fikir conservatively… MALAYS eh.. bukan muslims…

I was furious back then, thinking that napa la mama ni nak racism sangat.. but now, i understand.

The trigger:
I am currently hook up to the series of “the message” movie. Sadly to say, almost all the pelakon are mat saleh.. hmm… peliknya… the only thing is that the movie is certified by tthe ulama’s…

So to cut the story short… I start to wonder… Kenapa la org Islam tak buat macam ni?? kenapa bukan org islam yg buat movie… bukan org islam yg buat senjata sendiri? kenapa perlu bergantung kepada mereka2 ini…? then.. I understood the reason..

ALL the while… people had been only focusing on certain fields.. parents only encourage their children to take up medicine.. padahal anak die punyalah benci kat medic… then, the scholarship just goes to waste.. and akhlak of that child jadi macam tu je… apakah??!!!

instead great ideas might be generated if child was asked to do fashion, architecture, media, economics, social anthropology…

ni… bila adik dapat 10A ke… 20A ke.. everyone terus promote medic… ok.. its not fair to blame on the kid itself.. tapi what’s wrong with our education system? Is it not necessary to expose to these kids about other field.. why do we looked down upon this fields sangat2?? think about it…

dulu, kalau ada student yg dicategorizekan sebagai budak kelas economy, or kelas sastera… this people or considered macam nothing… Padahal.. now who is conquering the world? what profession? the economics people are… hmmm

but having said much, if the child is not following the tarbiyyah system also, no change can be observed too. So, things must go hand in hand.

If the previous sahabats, ulama’ learned the quran and sunnah and at the same time was a great professional in other fields.. why can’t we do the same.. to follow their footsteps should be our aim.. if it is not possible for us inculcate the habit of these great scholars such as memorizing the quran at younger age, understanding the fundamentals of Islam, aim of our life and others in our children.

The message that I hope you will get is that In order to regain Islam’s victory, you, yourself have to initiate the change. Then, a strong and firm tarbiyyah which strides along with powerful wisdom in any field in our next upcoming generation will surely ensure victory. Remember, you have to Change first.

this message ditujukan buat diri sendiri yg perlu diperingtkan juga…

InsyaALLAH.. may we embrace Islam victory and grasp the opportunity we have..

IrOny?~

SaLAm…

I’ve wanted to write about this.. Now, I had the time, I had the courage.. I will write.

I thought it’s quite an irony when the government kept on promoting their ONE MALAYSIA slogan but the opposite is actually happening in our beloved country. I’m neither pro-government nor side on opposition currently.

I don’t know whether my friends, are aware about this matters. Our system is not much, not any different from the Indian government now. We always say that in India the politics are so dirty, corruption is so high and so on and so forth.

But now, if you follow the current situation in Malaysia what is the difference?

A lot of court cases are going on now.. To understand one court case I was forced to read 5 different newspaper.. Because, just by reading one paper, it is obvious that the media is siding which party. Well, at least I learnt to filter, scrutinize the information given. But it is not easy I say.

The fear, for me is to see Malaysia become the nation’s joke. Day by day, the world is becoming interested what is happening in Malaysia. Take US for example, In the Wall Street Journal a few days ago, they said that the case of Anwar’s sodomy was yet a joke. Last time, he was accused with same case, when Tun Mahathir was at high on his reign.. The second case, again was reported by Mr. Saiful, after Anwar claim his seats in the gov. Hmm.. well… i remembered When i went for BTN, they always remind us that Anwar has a strong relationship with the US.. SO.. Its hard to digest any info given by anybody at  this point of time..

Well, to me, moral of the story is… we youngsters should be aware with the current situation of our country. It is ok to indulge in stuffs that are on the hip.. movies,

Nak BaLik…

Salam..

Went to airport today.. Hm.. teman Wani kola, ada emergency.. Well.. never knew what might happen to us eh?

Hm.. When I saw the airport.. Oh.. The feeling of wanting to go in, and take a flight back is so high!. SOB!! Miss my mama, papa and Sarah soooooo much.

Chinese New Year is this weekend.. Hm… Kind of miss popo, e ma, kau fu.. and others. Miss their nagging and blabbering.. haha.. Though pain it might be.. But I guess family is family eh?

hm.. I miss you guys so much. TO my bro, Amir.. Gud luck for your upcoming exam.

Well.. Love is a mysterious thing~~

FaRah Inani
…..StriVe For mardhatiLLAh

Open your EyEs…. u’ll knoW…~

Assalamualaikum…

Thought of giving it a rest for today. I was just browsing, and I found a very nice video.

OPen your Eyes.. and u’ll see d signSz..

FAraH Inani
….. Strive for MardhatiLLAh….

AvoiDing DoubTful MatteRs..

Assalamualaikum..

Avoiding doubtful matters.. or in Malay.. Menjauhi perkara yang syubahah..

On the authority of Abdu ‘Abdullah Al- Na’man Ibn Bashir, who said that I heard the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings upon him) say,

“That which is lawful is clear and that which is unlawful is clear and between the two of them are doubtful matters about which not many people know. Thus he who avoids doubtful matters clears himself in regard to his religion and his honor, but he who falls into doubtful matters falls into that which is unlawful, like the shepherd who pastures around a sanctuary all but grazing therein. Truly every king has a sanctuary, and truly Allah’s sanctuary is His All prohibitions. Truly, in the body there is a morsel of flesh which, if it be a whole,all the body is a whole, if it be diseased, all of it is diseased. Truly it is the HEART.”

Well, this is quite a famous hadith, probably moast of us had heard it, had even discuss the value lies in this hadith.  This is the second character a muslim in the modern world should have.  The first character is sincerity in action, the first hadith in Hadith 40.

I think that this hadith states clearly its meaning and i not need to give the meaning for every word.

The hadith obviously indicates that Muslim should make use of what is Halal to him and avoid at all cause what is stated as Haram in the Quran or from the sunnah of the prophet.

I myself admit that sometimes, in this modern world it is so hard to refrain ourselves from so many materials that are commercialized. However, this had also been one of the far most common question we asked. Take an example, when you reach in India.. try to retrace your steps.. what was the commonly asked questions?

“Akak, kat sini kan macam mana kita nak tau kedai ni halal ke tak?”

“AKak.. kedai ni halal tak.. tengok macam ramai senior selalu g je….”

Hm… Yup.. I myself asked the question. Sometimes, we strictly steer away from what is obviously Haram. But the other important part of this hadith is steering away from the DOUBTFUL matters. This, we always neglect.

Throughout the years, people had asked me similar questions above, for the ones that I was sure I can say yes. It is halal. But to those that, I myself have not tried, encountered, I can’t give my comments. Personally, if I feel that the subject of being questioned falls into the “doubtful” category, I would try to avoid it.

Why so much fuss?!! WHy do we need to avoid this doubtful matters.?

The successful muslim refrains from the doubtful items for two reasons:

1. To reach the station of the righteous ones. Nabi Muhammad s.a.w said, ” A servant (of Allah) will never reach the degree of the righteous and upright persons until he refrains from that which is permissible lest he may fall in that which is probihited”.

2. To set oneself as an example and model for people.

Based on this book, here are some of the doubtful matters we should avoid:

smoking

Going frequently to places of amusement

Extravagance in playing games

Reading immoral magazines, newspaper.

Corrupt companions

Food and drinks which are from unknown sources.

Well, here I would like to add.. Not to be harsh or anything, but a thought for us to ponder. All these while, I hoped that we notice that our fellow muslim brother and sisters in Palestine, Iraq, Afghanistan and many other places are being torment, treated like they are not human beings. I not need to explain who did these.. But the important part is are we a part of the agenda? Did we supply our money to these cruel people? I strongly had tried to for go the favorite things that I use to like.. So, if I can, so can you..

Again? You might think that all this might be a small thing.. not important. Again, it is on our judgement.

BUT, remember, the last part of the hadith.. is very important…

“… truly in the body there is a morsel of flesh which, if it be a whole, all the body is a whole, if it be diseased, all of it is diseased. Truly.. it is the HEART…”

“.. Sesungguhnya di dalam badan kamu ada seketul daging, sekiranya ia baik, baiklah seluruhnya, jika ia kotor, maka kotor lah seluruhnya. Sesungguhnya,.. ia adalah HATI…”

Do we really one to donate to the people who kill our brothers and sisters??

So, what ever we do, we want to try to keep our heart clean. If we want to discuss the disadvantages of having a diseased heart, that will need another topic.

A whole heart.. is the one is filled with reverence, love, hope, fear towards Allah.. He does anything for the sake to please HIs Creator. That is why to keep our hearts clean, we have to steer away from doubtful matters. Problems of feeling lazy to go for solat, fasting, wake up for Qiyam is due to our diseased heart…

Before ending this post, I would like to share a story, it is about I myself, which had made me realized that I myself need some discipline in control my likings.

“Kak fien… cantik kasut.. kasut baru ke…?” x said.

“Haah.. cantik ke.. terima kasih.. terima kasih…” I said.

” Kenapa kak fien beli nike tp?..”

“EH… Nike..? Erm.. Nike kita tak boikot kan? Nike macam bukan antara yg kt boikot tuk Israel…?”

“hm… tu X tak tau la.. tp yg pastinya Nike tuh org US yg kuarkan..”

“erm… ALa… barang US pun tak leh beli ke…?”

“ntahlah.. kak fien pike la sendiri…”

Hm… I thought about it. I really thought about it. As I said before, change is Hard. So, as a mutaba’ah to diri sendiri, I will try at my utmost best to refrain myself from doubtful matters.. It is a good thing actually.. we can lose weight. save more money, etc… haha..And again, I’m not trying to condemn others but it is all depend on our judgement. Don’t get me wrong… Like X said.. “fikir la sendiri..”

So, if you see me being zalim to myself.. do tegur/advise me.. like X did..

FAraH InanI

….. StrIve For MarDHatillah….

TaKe a DeeP BreaTh….~

Assalamualaikum..

Alhamdulillah, today, we are given a chance to live, given the ni’mat of Iman and Islam.. given the ni’mat of health, and other ni’mat that we seem to forget yet He never stops giving it to us. TO Allah, we say Alhamdulillah, for all what you have given us.

I guess that most of us had heard about the news about one of our muslim brothers in UK, Sheffield. This chap, was diagnosed to have Hodgkin’s Lymphoma since November 2008. He had taken chemotherapy since then and now unfortunately, the cancer has relapsed, now even more with vengeance. He is a final year med student, not sure of this though.. but he is a med student. Well, again, how would you react if it was you? Hmm.. That’s why, in every event, tazkeerah sessions the speaker would usually say all the things I stated in the opening. Ni’mat of Health, is the ni’mat that we youngsters seem to forget about. We don’t regard it as something precious and we to some extend we rarely express our gratitude towards Allah.

Funny, isn’t it?

We are doctors..  I remembered, once when I was in KMB, Dr. Muhaya, said that the essence of being a good doctor is not getting good grades, distinction but the essence of becoming a doctor is you have good ATTITUDE! THis point, even I myself, is still lacking. Try to imagine, if you yourself, don’t even appreciate the ni’mat of Health, it is difficult to feel empathy for others who doesn’t right?

SO, ni’mat that ALlah has given us is always for a reason. The hikmah lies behind everything that he has given us.

If today, you didn’t use your day wisely, ponder about it. What if tomorrow you are dead?!! harsh.. but we need some reminding. especially, I myself. Well, That’s why.. everyday.. before you go to bed.. think about all these.. and then TAKE A DEEP BREATH…~ plan your next day, make sure it’s better than today.

Well… talking about planning.. people who plan for their death is the most wise of all. Planning your death is not preparing which site of the kubur you one, or rather, which coffin or batu nisan design you want but planning for your death is when you prepare all the deeds that you can make at your greatest benefit before the end of your life reach and fetches you.

So,that’s why I believe in planning. It’s just that sometimes we need extra effort from ourselves to do what has been planned. (haha… talking about myself). Hm.. well, here is the other thing I had plan for myself and for others InsyaALLAH. I wish to discuss about some topics from the book ” Perfect Muslim Characters in the Modern World”. I had bought this book in Egypt, from my last trip. My aim/ plan, InsyaALLAH,we will together discuss slowly each chapter in this book, and the most important part is we do some sort like a Mutabaah/practical part for each chapter we discuss. HOpefully, all of us will benefit from this, InsyaALLAH.

So, again, take a deep breath… and plan your day ahead.

p/s: all these is implied to yourself also Farah!

FarAh InaNi

…… StrIve For MarDhatiLLAh…..

WheN THingS Go BaD, How Do We ReAct?!

Bismillahirrahamanirrahim…

Salam..

“JIe Jie.. today is my birthday.. Where’s my present?” Sarah said.

“Happy Birthday! I will give your present when I am in Malaysia..”

“U promise? u must promise me.. U owe me two presents already.. last year’s and this year one arr…”

“hm… ok… ok…. I will.. I will buy anything that you want when I get back to Malaysia ok?”

“ok!”

” How’s School?”

“It’s so fun.!!! I am in the Chinese Drum club.. now.. Every Tuesdays I will have the practice, and I get back at 6pm.. very tired oo.. THis school is so Damn Fun Jie Jie.. I had so much fun. They have music rooms, dancing rooms.. and you know what’s for lunch jie jie?”

“What? Nasi lemak…”

” Nasi lemak.. so ancient… hmm.. we hav chicken chops, nasi ayam with chicken teriyaki, shakes,….”

” Is this a school or a restaurant?” sigh.. confuse..

“Hm.. It’s cool rite.. jie jie..! And you know what jie jie, im having swimming gala next week…”

“What? Swimming gala…?!.. is it between u girls only or is it mixed?”

“HAHAHAHA… of courselah its mix.. what kind of question la weyh….”

“HMmmm… (sigh)….”

“And you know what jie jie… I got an iphone and a mac book!! i was suppose to get a mac book pro but then the sponsors were scared that other students will not be satisfied so they gave me a macbook instead..”

“wa… seriously.. You are 13 and you get all that!! Cool..(dunno wat to say…)”

“Jie jie.. and you know what… This school.. they hav the prom night.. I want to lose weight jie jie.. i want to go to the prom night!!”

“Really? they have those stuff too?”

“ya… Its so cool right…..”

This is ME. I am so different. What Would you do? How would you react? I love her. What should i do? I dont believe in all these things but what choice do i hav?

Allah has granted and blessed us. He created people with varsity of likings and dislikes. Sometimes, trying to give advices to your love ones’ is the greatest task of all. Painstaking moment.. When things Go bad, How do you React?

Do you go and cry? Ask for help? From whom? From Him? Or you just pretend nothing has happened, although it is bothering your mind like crazy…

To others.. who are blessed with family that has instill iman n taqwa since you are born.. please be grateful…

FArAh Inani…

…. StriVe for MarDhatillaH…

PeoPle MakE things Up

Assalamualaikum..

it had been a long time after my last post. Exams are starting to give me the creeps. Stress is cropping UP. And this is the part where I need Allah the most. Well, enough about my personal life. Not that important. Something to ponder about.

I watch a movie a couple of days ago, titled LEGION. Hm.. it’s kind of interesting. It’s a story about GOD which LOSE hope in the mankind. and want to reveal his Apocalypse. Hm… Then, there is one Angel, His Angel, the archangel MICHAEL(which i think it’s Mikail for us)try to go against HIS GOD. hmm… Tell me about it. They even included the archangel Gabriel (Jibrail for us) which was on GOD’s side…

Hmm.. This movie, made me ponder a lot of things. What we are sure that most people do believe in the afterlife, the end of the day, armageddon or whatever they call it. For us of course we believe in the Akhirat. But, for some, they still want to live in denial. Trying to find a reason, to escape the reality that might happen in the future.

How can we possibly say that our angels/malaikat go against our GOD. If there is such angel, that is not our malaikat.

Well, we humans do live in denial sometimes. Maybe that’s why, we are trying to create a “LIFE” here in the earth. We know what is said in the Quran is True. But, as true as it is. people find it disturbing and try to escape it. What they do is they try to comfort themselves.

Is just that is it possible for we mere human face God with just M16s or our rifles? Is it possible we humans to win over the battle over the creator who does earthquake, tsunamis, tornados and god knows what more.. Is it possible?? Even when Haiti has the second earthquake, we were not prepared…

People of the world… wake up.. wake up.. How long we want to live in denial. We are near to the end of the world. We are near. so near. we are aware.. juz analyse how many movies are trying to figure what the end of the days would be like?

Rather than just imagining the IMPOSSIBLE, why dont we prepare ourselves?

Allah is Great... How can we possibly know how to win over HIM??!!

FaraH InaNi

~….. STriVe For MardHatillaH….~

WINTERCAMP 09..

Assalamualaikum…

Alhamdulillah.. Our own indian- style wintercamp is over.. A success I hope?

hmm… Well.. Maybe.. in these 2 or 3 days.. Im gonna summarize bit by bit.. things that I think is necessary.. to share with others.. About what might lead us to ponder certain important points…

Its a 3 day program.. Again, allow mw to rojak.. As some points, I might not be able to write in english.. haha.. my english is not good.. still lack of vocabs..

Anyway.. back to business.. It’s a 3 day program. We left at 8pm.. and reached about 12.30pm.. It should be a 3 hour drive.. But you know lah.. India..

Today, as I am very extremely tired.. I will summarize, what I hope, what we aim.. is achieved..

Yes.. It might be a successful program. Every thought it was fun. I am happy that every enjoy or 3 day stay.. Sapa kata Tamil nadhu tak de winter… haha… macam kodhai kanal pun ada keh… hmmm… It was fun. As one of the akhi alway said, “Our aim is not to organize large, successful, ever fun programs. Our aim is beyond that. What we want is Others.. to find the true Islam.. to do ‘lure’ others  back to Islam..”

So.. my question to myself and also to the committee of Wintercamp 09… did we achieve this aim of us? Well… perhaps, maybe.. some of it we achieve.. ukhwah.. especially.. in my point of view..

Today, after the Zohor and Asar prayers.. I find it very sad.. As the program is over.. And I don’t know to how much extend i manage to help? Because, I felt that.. If.. and If.. My own self, masih tak cukup bagus, iman pun kadang- kadang lemah, what will happen to my beloved brothers and sisters? I am very worried.. Disebabkan diri sendiri yang masih hina dipandangan Allah.. ana tak mahu sahabat lain menjadi mangsa.. Worried.. every second.. I kept on reminding myself.. the reason of we conducting this program. Oh Allah.. lemah nya hambaMu ini Ya Allah..

Hope that others get.. what i am trying to say.. What ever is it.. May Allah accept what ever amal we have done sincerely.. InsyaALLAH..A million of Syukran, jazakillah khair.. to the speakers, akhi zafry, kak aishah(rugi tau akak takde kat sini ngan hafsah).. my beloved kakak- kakak(kak fadh, kak ana, kak nisa, kak achik, kak aha, kak E).. to my other akhawat(mimi, zahidah, wahida, kak nik nurbani).. to my ajk program adik-adik(zay,adiba).. and lastly to all the participants.. we could’nt possibly done it without yo guys..

Lastly, again.. I hope we set our mission straight.. to you guys.. who were there.. remember what Dr. Azizi said.. we have to level ourselves everyday.. Never be satisfied at only a certain point.. think big.. and we, my friends.. as Dai’E , we have more weight on our shoulder.. Studies must go hand in hand with dakwah!! Never leave either one behind. Both are for Allah ultimately. So, guys, lets do out best!!!

~FArah INani~

…. Strive for MardhaTillah…..

Takde gamba wintercamp lagi.. nanti bagilah yeh adik2… boleh la letaak nanti.. huhu

Akibat Hubb Ad-DuniyyA

Salam..

This is a post that i wrote immediately after my class. A post which some sort resemble my disappointment towards my own self. This is what happens when your love for Allah is fading away. Today, my dean announce that I didn’t have the required attendance for my final exam.Oh.. What my fate will be, I thought. Oh well, i sat there in disbelieve. After the session, what made matters worst, only one out of two of my bestfriends was concern. The other one, was just quiet. Again, I was sad. My only friend didn’t help me. Console me. Enough of blaming others. This is a post stating facts that is present in non others than me. I am not a good example of a dai’e. I failed.

I remembered, there was one time, I fell. Fell from my right tract. Fell so hardly, that my bones couldn’t be correctly arranged again. Fell from the hands of Allah. And.. my heart.. Allah let my heart slips away from His fingers. There was that one time….. I am hurt. I was the slave who loves Him but at times where it is easy I tend to forget Him. Oh… When will I understand?!

I played, I was caught in the darkness.. caught with the deceiving promises of the Syaitan.. But i never care.. I acknowledge those promises.. Who knows how many people I had injured their Iman?! I had made others forget from their ONLY reason of living.. I was caught.. Like Adam and Hawa(eve).. for the so called ‘eternal love’… But what I have actually gain? Nothing.. Love with another human being did not turned out well for me.. And I fell Again.. Again and Again.. Tears rolled down.. Thought how much I have lost for this Guy..

I wish.. I wish… I would have found His love earlier.. Earlier than other creature kind of love.. It is the love that is superior to any power in this whole universe.. too bad.. Sometimes.. The more I tried.. the harder I fell..

This is the outcome of loving dunniya more that His promised offerings. What do you expect from a guy Farah? A guy, whom yo are not sure you will love you forever and ever? What are you expecting on those expensive leisure stuffs Farah? If others are suffering unlike you.. Palestin.. Oh.. What I have done.. The motive in life .. remember Farah.. it is Ila Mardhatillah.. you are going to strive for it!! No matter how hard it is.

Please Oh Allah.. grant me the strength again… I am weak.. If you were to choose your other slaves.. certainly you wont chose me by your side now.. But Allah.. I am in the need of You.. Please.. Let me be free.. Please.. dont let me be succumb in this earthly life!! I am here.. in this dunniya.. only for a moment.. a pit stop.. a station.. for me to do my deeds… and then i should travel to my eternal life.. towards my eternal love.. it is you Allah..

Ya khalil.. please wait for me.. please let me be one of them who can be beside you…

~Farah InAni~

….. StRiVe FOr MArDHaTillah…..

My doa... Is that Allah grant me His forgiveness.. Let me learnt my lesson o Allah..